Chaos

There r things I need to reconcile with. But rationalization always do me more harm than good! The process of rationalization is supposed to be cognitive. Does this bring the emotive elements apart from the process? Or r they enmeshed in this whirl of chaos? I rmbr my professor told me once tt humans do not like chaos. Positions muz be taken up to manage chaos. What then is the epistemological and ontological position of the chaos I am viewing or am part of?