Graduation Emotions

Graduation ought to be a happy thing but strangely, I am feeling emo abt it...

These r juz some of the pple I am so gonna miss...

Honor

I did not want to go back for Arts mini bash but I felt bad coz I din manage to mit Hock and the rest at all this arts camp and since the oldies r going back, I decided to juz drag my feet to it.

And of coz I saw my freshies of old. There was Layz, JY (alright they were not my direct freshies), there was Anhong and Doris at the helm of the house. There was Coconut and Cheng (my latest addition to my freshie list).

I managed to do a 20 minutes dance with Coconut and Cheng. Then ah boy was overwhelmed by emotions on this being the last camp he's going to. At tt instance, I understood. It was nvr the institution (NUS), it was nvr the rara-ness, it was nvr the glory of being leaders. It has always been something simple: love.

With love, memories r built. At this point, no memories of bad flashed through. It was always the good and everything good was made beautiful.

I rmbr my school prayer back in SA ends something like this:

"That as it takes many hands to build a house
So it takes many hearts to make a school"

In this case, it works the other way with house being T-house. The house is juz a dummy facade with no value at all. It is only as precious as those who have been processed through it make it to be. Then I rmbr the passion of Yenghong and Anhong. And I was glad tt I recommended Anhong to take over the hse coz it really is not abt abilities but what the institution or the pple really means.

The end of Arts Camp always bring abt melancholy and I tot it wun this year but it did.

And here, though many wun read this, I'm glad to say tat I got to know so many pple thru T-hse and though I am hardly close to many of them, we know deep inside tt one time a year, we come together to do wad we ought to do.

And to Hocky, it was all because u believed in me right from the start.

Sometimes, we juz got to honor pple who did the right thing at the right time in our lives...

And some pple r prolly gonna laugh at this coz they can nvr understand. Prolly they wun understand coz all these is not juz a matter of efforts, it has been a configuration of energy, emotions, spirit and most of all, love.

Invisible Cities

[The Emperor] said: "It is all useless, if the last landing place can only be the infernal city, and it is there that, in ever-narrowing circles, the current is drawing us." And Polo said: "The inferno of the living is not something that will be; if there is one, it is what is already here, the inferno where we live every day, that we form by being together. There are two ways to escape suffering it. The first is easy for many: accept the inferno and become such a part of it that you can no longer see it. The second is risky and demands constant vigilance and apprehension; seek and learn to recognize who and what, in the midst of the inferno, are not inferno, then make them endure, give them space."

-Italo Calvino in "Invisible Cities"

Transformation

As I scanned through years of pictures on this birthday of mine, I am shocked at my physical transformations! Here goes:

Academic Year 2005

Academic Year 2006

Now and Beyond

And I just watched Sex and the City, my all time favorite drama serial made into a movie. Juz moments ago, Sheryl asked me what my birthday wishes are and that got me thinking because seriously, I never gave birthday wishes much thoughts. I think my life has generally been happy and smooth sailing. I never really had to worry about things or perhaps I dun seen troubles as worrying issues. And as these thoughts poured in, I got reminded of what something Charlotte York said in the show that generally, I am happy everyday. Not happy all day but yah, happy everyday.

I guess I am blessed. I am sacarstic and bitchy but my frens see it as funny.

I got my TWKs behind me anytime.

I got a brother who will fight for me.

I got crazy parents who insist on loving me.

I got frens whom I know who will be there for me should I need to turn to them including Layz, JJ, JY, Hockz, Ivan, Euwen.

I got academic results I wld have never dreamt of when I was younger.

I got job offers even before I officially graduated.

I get to travel with frens and some pple dun even have such opportunities.

I got myself in a manner that I don't lose sight of myself.

I got a bunch of crazy, bitchy, sarcastic yet loving much of honors classmates.

I got possibly the best supervisor for my thesis - jolly, intellectual and always encouraging.

I think I got the best life!