Granted!

As I sat on buz 161 home, thinking about wad to do for the write up on soci assignment, I began to ponder if I had all along been taken for granted. Simply put, it seems that I've been doing most of the work. Granted tat my guys do help with certain aspects, but it is onli when i edge them or ask or request or push or give deadlines then I get some correspondances frm them. I remember when I told someone to get this done by a particular date, the first thing the person say was "HUH? I got a lot of things to do lehz!" Oh come on, I've got church, cell group, CCA, readings, mid term papers too! Worse still, no one seems to even bother with soci assignment when it is TEAM work. No one even asks abt it to check the progress. I am totally SHOCKED by this 'bo-chup' attitude displayed..after all they are going to get the grade too. Simply rely on me? I'm too nice? Oh well... someone's going to do the write up the next time round and we shall see then...

Too wrapped up in a sea of emotions and thoughts to carry on blogging.. gonna take 5 and it is back to Ferrante...

Mid Term is HERE!

Arghzzz... a BREAK finallyzzzzzz... Had a wondrous time at the BBQ on SUN less the little bra-sh with my Mistress - Joy but oh well guess it's BLOWn over? Cant believe it .. spent whole dae in this freezing BOX called the NUS Central Library... did like 2 chapters for Soci..achievement? Nahz.. Think I am rather slow! Oh ya... I bumped into this tall and lanky young punk who served me at K-Boz last week and after checking me out decided to say 'HI' and OoooOoo he looked quite shock when I told him tat I'm frm NUS and tat I completed NS.. my oh my... Do I really look tat young? Indeed Youth is still wif me... Not much inspirations tdy... Oh well.. Lemme juz sign off by saying .. I LUV U guyz! Even though Jonny PANG SEH me yesterdae and tat it has been rainin these 2 days and tat JOYZzzzzZZ wrote sth so BLASPHEMOUS on her blg... STILL! I Love You GuYz! =) Gd Nite!

You got to SACRIFICE something...

Tdy, I made a very important decision... YES! More important than marriage... I tink I have decided to leave DB. When I joined DB back in August, I already had this ikling feeling that lots of things have to be compromised and I tot of juz trying things out and see how things go but oh... well now I realised that I had let gone lots of things far more important in life. Compromise on time with frens...goodness.. Pple like Ivan.. whom has been a buddy to me for zzz-on years and how can DB take his place? Pple like my cell grp members who have always been my pillar of spiritual support, my family who has always been sacrificing for me.. my students who have always look to me for academic advice, Ah Li who always get disappointed when I cannot attend seminars with her though I said I would... the Empress Joy whom always show it when she has menstrual problem PERIODically.. XiaoXin who has certain academic crisis.. and above ALL, Church and God who is my Lord, my creator....

P.S. Empress JOY juz called and insist I meet her earlier tomolo...oh well...tat's wat happens when pple miz-es ya too much =) Cheerz!

Come ON! U muz lift yr own...

Yet another dboat training day. Now as training progresses, I just get more n more drained physically and mentally. For the FIRST time finally while jogging, NO, running with the team that I vomited.. My fish n chips.. wad a waste of food..almost attempted to swallow them back!

Now I realised that physical training is somewad a translation of mental strength. Felt so DRAINED! Was rushing thru my readings to be in line with the schedule, had consultations with lecturer, went for Campus Crusade DG etc etc. Pst once said that in all things give thanks! Great ground for mental endurance training! Thanks for the encouragement given by Marc n Tat thru various modes of humour.. Thnxs GuoMing n Winston for the constant care shown in their subtle ways... thanks most of all for having to sacrifice your own energies to do 'shoulder presses' to aid me in my chin up regimes.

When I realised how weak I am in the team, shame hung me.. but no no.. I had pple ard me who nvr gave up on me though I am much weaker than they are..nvr once they reminded me of tat...

Then, there is JOY .. who waited for me to go dinner, to go home.. NICE 'lady'.. Oh there's LiHui too with her countless help and advice not only in academic arena but always ready with listening ears. When I went back to Arts Club after training, I saw Ivan and I realised how little sometimes we honour frens closest to us. Thnx Ivan for always being there. Though I may yak more than I hear more often than not.. thnxs for the years of frenship n warmth shown in yr ways. Most of glory be to God who placed all these pple ard me..

"CUM ON! U muz lift your own weight! Cannot always depend on pple to push u up..." - Melvin, a senior doing medicine in the Dboat team. This rang a bell in my mind...Lifting your own weight.. Pst Kong, "God puts the responsiblilty squarely on your shoulders" Success of life...an essay I am about to embark on in Philo.. Success seems now to me tat it is more than academic excellence, more than physical fitness, looks and attributes but living a life of abundance... My blog tdy sounds so... hmph..emotional? nostalgic? Oh well... this pnly happens once a while..

Once again.. LIHUIz and Joyz, 2 most wunnerful 'ribs' created ever in my life! Joy - frm canteen, to NEL, to bash, clubs, work, periods, boifrens, plants, bed etc etc... Lihui, corals, sea cucumbers, missing of stops, work, philo, econs, advice, support...Ivan - BUDDY BUDDY BUDDY!

Signing off... "Now these things remain, Faith, Love and Hope. The greatest is LOVE"